Such a hard time of year and your in my thoughts more than ever. My focus is to make sure Joshua and Katie have a great Christmas but behind my smile is so much pain. It never gets easier you just learn each day to live with the pain a bit more. I know you would not want us to be upset but you were and are such a massive part of our lives. Since you death I live every day of my life to the max and ensure we make special family memories every day. I have great Christmas memories and will cherish them forever, until we meet again x x x