Dad Today we should have been celebrating your 64th Birthday and even 64 is not old! that's why today as most days still seems especially hard. The sudden nature of you being taken is something I do not think I will ever come to terms with. I woke this morning thinking if you were still here me and the kids would have called you and sung Happy Birthday :-) you would have brought cream cakes for all your colleagues at work :-) and we would have had a family meal out or you would have come over for dinner and I would have brought a birthday cake for you and made a real fuss of you :-) Instead today is a very different day, I have had tears but also lots of smiles remembering all the wonderful and special times we shared. A year or so before you died I remember meeting you up at Hunstanton with the kids on several occasions, I would drive along the seafront and you would be waiting reserving my space around the green :-) me, you and the kids would spend some lovely quality time together walking and playing on the beach before meeting Mum for some lunch. I loved all the phone calls you made to me in the evenings, I know you were worried about me and the situation but we just used to chat about all sorts of normal boring things!! lol but things that mattered to us and things we had a connection about. I feel so disappointed you didn't get to meet Ant and no words can describe the feeling of you not walking me down the isle on my wedding day, but Joshua did you totally proud and knew what an important job he had and how special his role was under the circumstances. Right as always I am waffling now. I know your there looking over us and guiding me on my path of life and I think with every decision big or small what you would have done and follow this advise. Love you Sally x x x